You may remember the previous post where my husband asked me to leave. I can’t say this has been the first time, and I must be honest that I’ve left before (with Vitya) when the toxicity was in full-mushroom-cloud poison. My prayer life has been blossoming and in asking Him for guidance He answered.
I was listening to Patrick Coffin on his Catholic Answers Focus podcast. He was interviewing Greg and Julie Alexander, a couple who were just as screwed up as me and my husband. When I read this passage:
“I couldn’t understand how it had happened.
I had stood at the altar with this man and said, “I do.”
But now if he walked past me and touched me,
I wanted to throw up. I felt chilled on the inside.”
I knew I was going to read a story that was honest and relatable. Greg and Julie do not hide their skeletons or make excuses for their behavior. Although infidelity is not a part of our story, many of the issues Greg and Julie faced are the same as we are struggling with on a daily basis.
So, I sent my husband the link to the book and we are now both reading it to see if we will allow ourselves to heal and improve our marriage.
Pray for us.