Last day at the Hell Mouth….SURPRISE!


Well dear friends, let me clarify, when I say “Hell Mouth” that is  not comprehensively descriptive of everyone in my office and the RGV. Just like Buffy had her Scoobey gang, I had a small group of wonderful and dear people. Unfortunately, except for two, *none* of them worked in my department.  My actual days were spent being made miserable by Dilbert and his Rotten-Egg Gang and then seeking support from my Angels.

Well, as my time drew to a close, attempts to plan a big get together just fell apart.  The last two weeks were days of one-on-one lunches, a drink and appetizer evening out, and short, fun visits. Overall I was feeling happy and content.

My last day began with me training the new replacement and as we went from department to department saying final goodbyes. Mary-Lou (a beautiful person who works in H.R.)  had offered to have lunch in the cafeteria with me and I was so excited! I invited a few others to join us, but received polite declines. It was Friday after all, and lots of people cut out early.

So, imagine my delight when one department paged me and I walked into a surprise party of cake and gifts! Beaming. I was just beaming. Then, I get a page that H.R. needed me to come A.S.A.P. and sign discharge documents and I needed to hurry.

I get to H.R. and the employee health nurse and recruiter were impatiently waiting and said they’d like to have a fast lunch before I left. I told them of Mary-Lou and they agreed to come along BUT my discharge papers were in the office and my leaving had to be finalized as soon as possible.

We quickly hurried to my department, we walked in and….


Every one of the people I loved best, INCLUDING those who said they were not going to be around were there with a beautiful lunch, a pink feathered boa, cake and presents!!!  I burst into tears. Me. I’m not a sentimental crier in the least, but there I stood speechless with tears running down my face. All of H.R., our COO and wife (whom I adore), parents of a child I had worked with, the angel people from the department were there clapping and celebrating me.  This was more than I had ever imagined or dreamed.

As you get to know me better, you will know that way deep down I have trouble believing that I am important to other people. The reasons for this are long, likely boring, but I lack that confidence that I am someone special or that I am worthy of this love. So, this goodbye party, in short, was a big WOW of love straight to my heart.  Many people went to great lengths for this to happen and it was humbling and joyous for me.

I’m still smiling…and there just may be a tear or two as I remember that day…


Linking Arms…



      Sometimes, when in deep prayer, I have what I call dream visions.  They are not dreams of realistic imagines but rather more like animated folk paintings. Much in the style of the one I have here – very beautiful but obviously not something from this reality.

A few weeks ago, I was in deep despair and sadness. There is a lot of back story to that despair, and if not for family and two very dear friends (Shirley and Ben-Ben) I don’t know what would have happened to me overall. But it was through the love of people that I was able to pick myself up eventually and move on with my life.

Right now, it seems everyone I know is having such struggles!  Health, family, financial, employment, social…you name it, and it seems as if forces beyond our control are doing everything they can to beat and bend us under these external pressures.

So, I was in prayer and meditating, especially upon Shirley and Ben-Ben. Asking God to please step in and give blessings. To please work His miracles and extend them upon us because, I’m sorry, sometimes the pressures of life ARE too much to handle!!!

And so, in the midst of this prayer, I suddenly was up so very high in the sky and looking down on this large valley. In this valley were so many people who were all trying to reach a destination but there was such an awful wind! A wind which was pushing them down, buffeting them from all directions, keeping them from their destiny.  I watched these little figures attempt to stand, only to be then violently pushed to their knees over and over and over again. So much hopelessness and despair!

I implored God to help them! Where was He? And all of sudden one of the little figures reached out and strongly and forcefully linked his arm with the next person…who then reached out and linked their arm with the next person and so on and so on…until there was this little concentric circle of people, standing tall and strong against the wind. The wind was still just as violent, but because this linking of people was so tight, so firm, so deliberate that all the wind could do was blow around them. All of them were safe. All of them were taken care of and I realized what He was telling me…

If we all link arms and securely lash ourselves together…if we all provide that support and care and love, then nothing bad in life, nothing external in this world, can ever push us down or keep us away from who we are, what we want, what we need, what our heart desires. Nothing.  

God was telling me that WE are here to do His work and WE can provide for each other and none of us need be alone, we just need to reach out and link ourselves together and more importantly allow others to link their lives with ours. Prayers are then answered. Miracles are then received. 

I invite you all to reach out and link your arms and form your circle of strength…God is with us and in each of us and we, by doing this, will be the Eucharist to each other…